Gone

My life has changed so drastically
It hurts to breathe
Hurts to move
You're gone.
 
The night you left us
I lost my mind
Fumbling in the dark
You're gone.
 
Since then my grief is plentiful
I feel pain in new places
My heart burns with sadness
You're gone.
 
We buried you on a Tuesday
And as they lowered you down
I prayed that God would take care of you
You're gone.
 
I love you Dad
More than you know 
But I have to let it go
You're gone.
 
-Katelyn

Tripod

 
Ive hid the pain for so long
I never knew how to talk about it
Your all ive ever had
But i cant talk to you about this
 
When you left i was so lost
I tried to leave with you
But i failed
For you wouldnt let me
 
Now i know of a Tripod
Of whom i can fully trust
To talk to about you
Now i know of the love i had for you
All over again in a brand new way
 
I finally just let everything go 
To my savior Jesus Christ
And two of the best people ever
And im happy again
 
All because of a Tripod
All because of Jesus Christ
And two amazing people
All because of an amazing Tripod
-contributed by Shane Enloe

Note to An Angel

Your couch is empty,
My Heart is empty too.
It’s hard to fathom,
Living life without you.
Your 18 years have come and gone,
As fast as night turning to dawn.
But in those 18 years,
There were lots of smiles and cheer.
The day that you left us,
It was very hard.
We had to do what was right, 
And let you go that night.
But we know you’re OK now,
You’re in a better place.
Where you can run, dance, talk,
And sing songs of Grace.
To Matthew my brother,
To Matthew my friend,
I can’t wait for the day,
When we’re reunited again.

Fly, Matthew, Fly

I hope this shall ease your pain,
Matthew’s now a little plane.
Flying in the sky above,
Making rainbows filled with love.
When you look up to the Sun,
Think of Matthew having fun.
Laughing, skipping, running with joy,
Like every other girl and boy.
So when you see him flying by, say
"Fly, Matthew, Fly!" 

Poems By Marissa E. Shilling (Age 13)
In Loving Memory of my brother, Matthew William David Shilling, 11/17/88-12/23/06, who passed away from Globoid Cell Leukodystrophy.

MY SADNESS

My heart is filled with sorrow
the love of my life won't be here tomorrow
I want to cry, I need to grieve
I want to scream please just let me be.
 
I'm not ready to feel better, the loss is
so new.  I am not ready to go on living
my life without you.  Everyone says that their
sorry , that they understand.  Well, I am sorry,
I am mad, sad, hurt, lonely and lost.
I just want you back, I don't care what the cost.
 
I want to be quiet, I don't want to talk. I want to lie
in the darkness with all of my thoughts.
 
I do trust in God, I know there is a reason. I
still want you with me for every season.  I guess I am selfish for wanting
you near, I never had to worry about you not being here.
 
My sadness, my pain, my broken heart, they all know your in a better
place but we are still apart.  I long for your touch, your sweet words and your smile.
I want your arms around me, your sweet kisses on my face, I want you here with
me, not in a better place.  Lord, I am sorry, you know my heart so please hold
me closely while we are apart.

By Tiffany Williams

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Remember to always appreciate your friends - 
keep them close to your heart cause everything can change in a heartbeat.
On June 5th, 07, a 14 year old girl took her life.  this girl was my friend.
Her name was Rebecca Leigh Smith.  It was that day of June 5 while sitting in English, 3 gals came to the door. 
All year tens report to the hall were their words.
I knew something was wrong walking into the cold empty hall when I heard Nina say, "It's Bec".  
Seeing her eyes flooded with tears my heart sank; my head spun, nothing made sense to me.
When I heard Mr. Nickolson say that Bec was gone; that she took her life; I burst into tears.
Everyone was in shock.
I looked around wishing and hoping to see our Bec walk in
but she didn't.
I left school; couldn't bear to be there, so I walked home
knees weak, shaking and crying head spinning,
everything seemed to stark.
I crawled into bed and cried and cried and cried
when I felt the arm of my father around me, I couldn't speak
i felt like screaming; Father, it isn't fair, please bring her back, just bring her back.
Then came the day of June 11 the day we finally said good bye.
Seeing everyone she loved break down, I couldn't handle it.
I sat on the cold lonely chair just looking a the pictures of Bec around me.
I couldn't move; my body just froze
my silent tears became for all to see.
I regained myself and formed the guard of honor with the rest of my mates from school.
Bec was carried past me.
the song by Nelly Furtado "All Good Things Come To An End" came on
We broke down, catching the eyes of her father and brother
i fell to the grown in grief
it wasn't fair
the long ride back to Rocky took forever.

By Angel Jasperson

I miss you

Your not here any more,
You left with hardly even saying good bye,
I hardly knew you
I didn’t even have enough time to memorize your smile or your laugh,
And now you are gone
Completely gone from my life
And all there is to haunt me is the memories of you
The small simple memories of us together
When we would look into each others eyes 
When we would joke around and wish the day would never stop.
Those memories haunt me every night
Every time I close my eyes I just want to cry
I miss you so much…
I saw you the other day
I don’t know if it was a dream or if it was real,
It tore me to pieces I didn’t know what to do 
I wanted to hold you and I wanted you to hold me too
You were so close to me for just that moment, but you seemed so far away
We looked into each others eyes
With confusion, hate, love and tears
Do you miss me too?

Love, Lauren

Nathanael

If only there was an angel watching over me
If only I could stop and set time free
To stop the ticking, the churn of clogs
To freeze the hands that round the clock
Slowly counts down our numbered breaths
And lets us know all we have left
It counts each second, minute, hour
It strips us of our illgotten power
Until were left with nothing more
Than just the countdown from a distant shore

Angelique Bollen

On my own little island

Why did you leave me?
You left me on my own little island,
it's like people don't know where i am ,
Because they don't understand.
My life got turned upside-down and inside-out
when you left me on my own little island.
 
I'm on my own little island fighting this pain,,
the pain of loosing you,
people help me get through it,
but i feel all alone isolated,
on my own little island.

By Hannah